loan or scholarship...so frustrated

salah stu my resolution for dis year, nak apply scholarship...tp gov malaysiaku tercinte cut down all of the expenses for scholarship...adoiiii...sgt sgt sdih wooo...mybe bajet belanjawan negara 2010 kot..only left application for loan..which means kne pay back da loan after study..400 for one month...ok...byk tue...abes duet gaji aku..haha..berangan ..already discussed wif mak ayah...dorg xkasi apply loan...urmmm...klu xde loan, xleh enjoy lbih...no shopping,no holiday,no ipod touch,no new notebook,no new handphone..urm,klu nak mintak kat mak ayah mcm kesian lak...tue sume kemahuan bkn keperluan...x pnting2...klu xde leh jer idup.. bazir duet sume tue..hahha,..ayat nak sdapkn dri sndri..;((